Wednesday, January 14, 2009

What is your deepest fear, son?

It’s been a while. I was busy in schoolwork and tests are everywhere. My injured thumb is alright now, thanks again Sebas for the wristguard, it helps!!!! I have been applying ointment these few days and my classmates are complaining, “@$#$$^&^&%, I’M EATING HERE!” (About the sound) LOL. I’m 1 more weeks to holidays and going to plan to work on holiday, so I’m on a tight schedule.

These few days, my classmates are saying a funny question; do not know where they got it from.

What is your deepest fear, son?

I was surprised they mention that. Everyone have fears, but those are minor fears such as cockroaches, ghost or scolding. But deep in the heart, that one fear was able to change your life. So what is my deepest fear………..

My Deepest Fear

It is losing my memory. My beautiful memories, the things I went through, the unforgettable events and organization, my friends, my loving mother and caring father and sister. To lose them is the saddest thing in my life. The knowledge you gained and the wisdom you have seek, the important achievements in life and the greatest failure not to be forgotten. Those were the valuable and precious memories.

I discovered my deepest fear just last year, I was asleep at night. I dreamt that one day, the doctor said, “Your brain has been damaged during the accident, and I am afraid it will result in loss of memory very soon, good luck.” I was totally shocked and was greatly depressed. Losing my memories, my greatest memories. My family, friends, ZQS, Sp Aikido, etc. I quickly ran to my room and write down what happened in my archive notebook, I was lucky to have recorded down my memories on that book. Then I said to my mother that when I forgotten everything, she will ask me to read the notebook, the Life of Zhuge Jing. At last, I sink into my armchair and wait for the last moment sadly, recalling the wonderful memories I had for the very last time. Later, I felt pain in the head.

I woke up and know that it was a dream. It may be an unrealistic dream but it has brought me in the state of quietness and loss. I was in no mood to eat or play on that day, fearing it may happen. But it did not.

So people, ask yourself, what is your deepest fear? And is it scarier than mine…………………….

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